HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

  Okay can everyone tell that I am excited for this new year? Well let's put it this way. New Year's Eve was filled with a lot of tears, a lot of hope, a lot of praying, and a lot of smiling once the new year rang in. I have never been so happy for a new year to ring in as I was for this one to ring in. This year I have my whole life ahead not because I wish it but because I want & need it.

  I've met a lot of new family members and friends since I started blogging and talking on GR. I've met people who have stood by me through thick and thin although I wanted to scream at them to go away. They were still there.

  My partners are still with me even though I tried to push them away from me. It didn't work they pushed back. I will always remember that I got something I've never had before. A family that loves me no matter what. Partners who try their hardest to keep me talking even when I want to ignore them and hide in my music & my writing && my drawing. My partners have not only put up with my stressing and taking it out on them even though it wasn't their fault but they stayed although I did nearly lose them all to me not being the Big little adult around.


My New Year's resolution & my new year's wish/wishes.

Resolution.
1. I plan to become the best person I can be.
2. I hope to become a published author
3. I want to see my partners all of them for the first time face to face this year.
4. I want happiness & love to never end
5. I want to be more open with my partners
6. I want to smile & laugh more than I ever have this year and the ones to come


Wishes
1. I wish for my partners happiness's
2. I wish and hope for my family's happiness (New family lol)
3. I hope that my friends find everything they are looking for & more so much more
4. I wished for peace and love to come to all the men and women I know in my life. They deserve that more than anything in this world.




  I vow that by the end of this year I plan to have all of that and anything extra will make me smile. I vow that this new year and all the ones to come will be filled with happiness & joy not only for me but for my partners and my family.




I love you all please just remember that. Life is what you make of it. You have to put in good things to get good things in return. You have to make the effort. Most of all you have to want it and grab it while you have your chance. Don't let it slip away!




  Hugs & Kisses && A whole lot of love & joy


  Lucy "Kat" Katherine N. (Ha! thought yall were going to get my last name didn't ya? Sorry not yet.)

Searching The Stars

  I watched the night sky late last night and will again tonight. I counted the stars like I did when I was just a small child. I felt like for once I could still be me and watch a star fall or sparkle. I never knew how stars could be like people and like life until I sat watching the stars.

  I wished upon a star that twinkled last night. It felt so much like when I was a small child of about five years old. Yet, the wishes are different when you are older. One day your wishing upon the stars for a bicycle and the next it is wishing that your life would turn out just the way it should.

  My wishes, My Dreams, My hopes & My heart & soul goes into many of my thoughts. Sometimes I don't know how to keep my mouth shut and I hurt with my words. Other times I can be a sweet loving woman that is care free. I struggle with many things that aren't always something I can bring myself to talk about.

  I know what has happened is never able to be taken back. Wishing can be harmless but your words are not harmless. There are power in words. No matter what you say but, be careful of what you say and do.

  I have always wished upon stars rather than praying as much as I should have. Perhaps I should watch what I say that could hurt people that I love. Many people just see what I write on the screen. But, others see how I can be truly on some things.

  I found a star when I was 15 and wished upon it. I wished never to be alone. When I turned 16 I wished for equality for all and peace. When I was 17 I wished upon the stars to have a long happy life with people who would love me. When I turned 18 I wished for strength and I started praying for it as well. The night I turned 19 I wished to smile more for years to come. I do that every day but life is still hard. When I turned 20 I wished for something that was simple. To have a family of my own and it will still happen ever though I am telling a wish because it's also a prayer. Now getting ready to celebrate just living I want to pray and wish for peace, happiness, love for one and all. No matter the race, sexuality, it's no matter who you are. I am not going to let anything get in my way of living the way I need to live not ever again.

  So as I start my wishing tonight I want to think of all the good in the world. There is still good in the world no matter how hard it is to find. I want to remember that love and happiness exists and all the hatred in the world that is out there is just to distract us from the life we should be living. I am never going to let anything else distract me from living my life to the fullest.